Thursday, March 3, 2022

Nosy Nose

 


When I arrived at the table with my best friend, Liz, I told her the gossip.  I’d had the most unusual event happen to me the day prior.  I couldn’t wait to share. We talked small at first, growing into bigger topics.

“So you’re telling me this guy had several doubles that you like?” Liz said.  “That doesn’t sound like a guy you want to mess with, not even with your oblivious senses.”

“He’s not a spy,” I said.

“How would you know? What is he? They pretend to be so many people.  Just because

you saw some show with him on it.”   

“No, I wouldn’t get involved with a spy. They make terrible husbands anyway, always gone, in constant danger, worried late nights with a tissue box, the fear of the kids overhearing the wrong words and being shot.  I have arrived at a conundrum, however,” I said.  

“And what cockeyed dimple from a smiling fool has brought you to this ‘conundrum”’ Liz asked. She smoothed out her long blonde hair that went almost to her waist, at least a three-hundred dollar wig.  Her petite nose brought more attention to her emerald eyes and pinched pink cheeks.

“Let’s say the double asks you on a date, but you want the original, or perhaps the unoriginal man, or whoever, the love at first sight.” 

“And why would you want the original?” Liz asked. She giggled and moist drops accented her purple lips, always a character.  I guessed she found my problem comical.

“Maybe I read his book somewhere, or maybe I like what he majored in, or maybe…”

“You’re a gold-digging whore who wants to make it big, escape your class? You wouldn’t be the first on the cherry-picking ladder.”

“Hey, now, Liz, you’re with a lawyer at the moment,” I reminded her in a sour tone. 

“Ladies gotta lie,” Liz said, “Anything you say can be held against you in a court o fo law–

Women judge their gossip.”  

I rolled my eyes.

“That isn’t the reason I want the original,” I said, “Or the unoriginal or whatever.  He looks

so badass in that all-black hoodie outfit on the cover of the magazine.  I like his smile, too, like mocking me and eating me.  There’s only one major feature that changes, his nose.  Sometimes his nose is small. Sometimes, it is large.  Sometimes, it changes shape.  I’ve narrowed the two I want down to the nose.  One is a big crescent moon, and the other is small and shapely with those eyes piercing into your soul, taking it into his mind.”

“The eyes aren’t the nose or the smile,” Liz told me.

“One looks soft and gentle, and the other one looks tough and fierce,” I said.

“Who has the bigger bank account?” 

“LIZ MARLEWORTH!”

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” she pleaded and then sighed.  

There was a moment of silence.  

“So which one did you pick?” 

“The richest one so that I can torment you!,” I roared.

Suddenly, I heard a noise behind me. We’d been talking too loudly.  A man came and looked at me with those black eyes.  I kept my mouth shut and tried to calm my heart down.

“Well, ladies, are you missing something?”

What was he doing here?

“I wanted to give this back to you.”  The man handed me my passport, smiled, and then took an attractive, tall redhead, and they walked away, laughing.

Too bad I couldn’t leave the moment on a plane to "Paper Bag Town."


Tuesday, February 22, 2022

The Alien's Goal



I reached down and grabbed the energy drink out of my cooler that cracked as I put my hand into the bag.  The fizzing liquid, clear and bubbly, went down my thirsty throat.  The taste of blueberries erupted in my mouth.  I closed my eyes for a  moment and puckered my face as the substance traveled to my stomach. 

My life was chaotic, unmastered, and I was mostly ignored.  This gave me a feeling of freedom that words can’t charge pictures for.  At home, my parents fed me, clothed me, provided a thick, grey roof over my head, and yet, to them, I was nothing but an inconvenience for them.  A baby popping into the world wasn’t their idea.  I came in much the same way condoms break and don’t fly away like red balloons. At least those showed a warning. 

Annoyed with my thoughts I picked up a basketball and shot it at the goal.  It bounced off the board, and I ran after its orange hopping soul.  

Grabbing the sphere, I looked up and saw a strange man dressed in pink with a yellow ball cap, wrinkled and stained as if from the garbage can.

“Excuse me, sir,” I said.

“Indeed or in deed,” he repeated, and I noticed two different words.  

“I…”

“Oh, my name is Eric, inspector of Earth.”

I didn’t reply.

“I have a question for you,” he said.  I noticed he lacked a shadow. 

“I need to get going,” I said. 

“Just give me a thought for a penny.”  My lower lip quivered, but I kept my fear silent.  The guy was either crazy or trying to pull some stunt.  I needed to keep my guard up.

“I…”

“So, in your cognition, is a thought true or is an action true?”  

I paused perplexed by his reference, in your cognition.

“Um.”

“Look, I have three other planets to fly to today.  You popped up in the computer, so don’t feel too special,’ the being said.  A feeling of anger rose in me.  He continued, “If you think of scoring a goal and your ball fails to achieve the thought, is the thought false?”

“Okay, weirdo,” I said.  “The thought is true.  The action is false.”

He chuckled, “Always a human. We knew you would go like space drums and the" Olgies.”  

“Well, fine, the thought is false,” I said.

“The thought lead you to throw the ball and make a goal.  It is difficult to put this concept into an insane species’ head.  I’ll tell you that your thought is a lie and that you don’t know it because you’re barely conscious, as is the rest of your species.  Well, goodbye in so many ways.”

“Wait!” I yelled out in vain.  The alien disappeared, a faint scent of sulfur filled the air.  

So aliens fart when they leave.  

That’s the trophy of human humor, a thought entered my head. 

Go away, I thought back.

Already am, dear.  


Sunday, January 23, 2022

You Don't Want to Play Nice--The Opinion Machine Would Like My Article... Scared. I Don't Have Any Fans... Who Listens to Me? I can Pop up in Other Places

 So, yes, James has seen some horrible things in war.  The soldiers of this generation are able to do them because they don't understand consequences, pain, or empathy.  People in my generation can slaughter a hundred people and feel nothing.  They might laugh and think it's cool.

They have programmed us to be sociopaths or spoiled brats who have not a care in the world. They are so much better.  That's why you spank your kids.  Pain is real. Pain is a consequence of doing the wrong thing.

  I've always been a little off. I come from insanity to start with.

  My mind broke young due to abuse, that's what my sister says. I'm a child in a woman's body.  They mocked that.  I used to look it, too.  A lot of guys are into that.  But I was thrown against petty millionaires who think they matter. Now they're asking me if I'm trying to impress Durov with my poems, nope. I'm trying to impress him by spitting seeds across the room.  Not only do I have a head of personalities, but I'm also a doorway and become other people. They've damaged my mind quite a bit.  

In the army, they want to test their opinion maker.  Would people like me, as in "Eat Me, Drink Me," be shot to death.  I think I'm a "Butterfly next to your flame."  The other stuff, well, indeed, I am a young teenager in an obese woman's body.  

When they torture you, you are not supposed to explain why or such, but when you stop responding due to shock or pain, you may want to get a t-shirt, "Because I'm dead."

Keep working for the "smart" people like Musk.  

I'll keep impressing my boyfriend Durov.  


James


https://www.huffpost.com/entry/war-veterans-thank-you-service_n_61df1b97e4b0ee023e692528

 I've always been a little fucked up in the head.  My sister tells me I shattered young due to our lives.  As some sort of coping mechanism, I not only developed different personalities like DID but not the TV way, different awarenesses and voices, some of who were my friends.  I also have a young personality that I only let out at home. Well, I guess sometimes it slips.  I've been abused in almost every way you can imagine, not sexually in a penis sort of way, just being thrown up against rich people and socially destroyed even more. People used the mating game to knock me out, to make me go to Hell if I don't degrade myself or date a hobo on crack.  It's like, that guy would have paid bank to fuck me 20 years ago, speaking of wealthy, not rich.  Due to a certain reaction, I looked like a little kid longer.  Sadly, it goes the other way soon because the body can only take so much.

I didn't completely suffer all those years because I wasn't always with the same awareness.  I also went to Beetard land that protected me while making me fumble like an idiot and talk about Rainbow Brite and "Happy, happy, rape, happy, happy." -- Marilyn Manson.  He's also going to the Russians if I have my spoiled way.  "Happy, Happy, Prison Camp, where the guards are gay, and it's a-okay.  And the Russians hate that rainbow for some reason.  Denial?  Perhaps they send all their homosexuals to the prisons.  Then again, Russians like ass, so it's not totally gay with sword fights.  It's just bawling on a budget.  

I've spent many years on the wards and seen quite a bit.  The people who are the most messed up are my generation.  The females are usually there for money.  We were poor girls, and so we're married to Uncle Sam.  Leaving home and getting pregnant in the service dooms many. He'd have to take care of us some way, any way, so don't hate.  Many continue to have babies and hang out at bars. They are very proud of their service.  I'm happy they are happy. Some of them say they were raped by Generals, multiple generals, and it's like, ladies, you must be nuts.  If they did that, you would have committed suicide with a bunch of acid on you...

Someone in the military decided to hunt me while I was in. This is common with females, as we're hated by many, too. One girl I shammed with in the sauna had her entire previous command after her.  Anyway, they are testing opinions and wanted to know what the public would think of my death by firing squad, so they made me a traitor and worship Putin, as I lay on the floor.  I could tell you they're not going to like that for many reasons.  People aren't as stupid as these guys.  "The ending didn't test well." From Eat Me, Drink Me.  "I thought I was a butterfly next to your flame... I see my horror at sundown with a blank stare."  This goes back to the hatred of women in the military, too.  Like I said, when I was younger, I looked like a child, and there are a lot of pedophiles out there or people who like that look.  Then they put me by the playground, for I am but a child.  Yes, I am.  I'll giggle at you in that version and make your day bad.  Don't doubt me :P  I hit on every officer when I was med-boarded out since I was constantly accused.  

James knows many things that nobody else ever will.  The Iraq veterans are the worst off if they have morals because our society does not, and it raised them to be sociopaths and be demons.  Some would say they have no fear of God like Blue Stahli.  It goes beyond that.  They have no understandings, no consequences.  I may be a child trapped in a woman's body, but they are like children telling other children to drink antifreeze then crying and butchering their dead friend's corpse because he won't get a glass of milk for the other.  It's like, OMG, the kids aren't alright. Life means nothing.  Their souls (egos) belong to the head raptor.  I really hope I'm impressing Durov with my poems.  Punish me. You guys are stupid to use them. I've let you.  No, I thought it was cool I spit seeds across the room.  He was taking over my awareness before that. Yes, I can invite people in as well. Some people are doorways.  They've damaged a lot of this. I sleep a lot.

They are surrounding our communities and doing things like this.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6_iQvaIjXw  This is a video by Ms. Ariana Grande. They make people horny or partner.  I don't know why they don't drag them in and just implant the fetus.  I'm sure it'll get to that.  

Many of us need t-shirts because after torturing us and yelling at us for screaming in pain, we stop responding.  They get mad and keep going.  You've raped me with rays so many times, I don't care.  However, some of them injure us, and we squeal.  Then we stop.  Our t-shirt reads, "Because I'm dead."  They don't even understand pain or injury or that we will die.  We aren't in a video game, much as ABIR wants us to be.

They also kill us by stopping our hearts, which bleed, and then our head swells with a hypoxia injury. Ouchie.  I wander between the worlds.  

After everything and more, they expect us to work.  Um...  I want to take all of their money and make them all work in soup kitchen for the rest of their lives with their money going toward homeless housing.  May dreams come true.




Sunday, January 9, 2022

Fruit

Rouse me, Lord,
A path less traveled.
Emotions, sparks, yours!
I, a simple creature

In the garden of Time.

Never truly lost, alone
We wore ourselves
In manifesting desire.
Love, undress me!

Saturday, January 8, 2022

Roses Red


Bits of philosophy
Do ever displease.
A heart or a sword
Only when free tore…

A man and his cape
In fits of mad rape.
A rose by any other name
Is but a thorn for fame.

Saturday, December 11, 2021

The Devil’s Panopticon: And God’s Grin

  

 

                  The Devil’s Panopticon: And God’s Grin

 

 

The room filled slowly with adults.  Most of them were men with the rest being something else, all tolerated, all gathered in the same bland auditorium, as most knew the more hype places would be crawling with college kids and actors, people who were useful but not at the present. Foolish clowns and dancing divas would submit to their higher power soon enough. After all, the people in the auditorium recognized the experts as themselves. With high IQs, they need not exert themselves just yet.  Fools are fools no matter, flat characters in a round world.  Spend, spend, spend.

“All Pronouns, I have gathered you today to share my personal thoughts and opinions on how we can make a better world with the technology we have gained.  It is in our hands to use our gifts and the gift of technology to alter the course of mankind.  Do not worry about your phones being hacked, the ones the doorman politely told you to keep.  It runs on new wheels now, and no one can access it but you, as it knows you.  Fear of the unknown need be no more.  We’re in charge with our tightly folded cortexes.”  

“Oh, I see a question already.  Shoot away…” the man dressed in a violet suit said.  He stopped pacing the stage, turning his full gaze to the third row.  

“How will we blend in with the public?  I didn’t see anything about that in the five-hundred-page introduction to this conference.”  The man, obviously obese, had sweat rolling down his bald head into his lips.  Prior to the conference, he’d eaten a bag of Cheetos, delicious morsels, licked away with molecules left, as he saw all there was.

“It’s simple.  I suppose you missed page four-hundred and fifty-two, my fine sir.  Have you ever heard of relating to, ‘That which is denied?’  The public wants certain sympathies and has many triggers due to the sheer vanity of our population.  Tell them they have emotional intelligence, that even you are a bad test taker, that you don’t need college to succeed, that you worry about the arrogant who cannot relate to the public.  Oh, rest assured, if my name isn’t Tony, that they all will fall for it.  Tell them there are wormholes to Mars,” Tony said. 

“Yes, yes,” the man said.  He wanted to lick his thumb again. So small, so delicious. 

“Ladies and Gentlemen, this is our domain. We control the range.  After all, it is with our great feats that tell of our genius, of how we raise the children to appreciate our skills, to guide the childish who have the ability but not quite mix of genius of perspective.  It’s in our DNA to rule.  All of those who are present today have received the results of their tests already, I presume.  We’re all related to royalty.  It connects us together in superiority,” Tony said. 

The crowd nodded its head as the projector flashed behind Tony.

“Let us begin.”  

“The Panopticon, the architectural design where the means of control are in a watchtower 

in the middle of a group, originally this was used in prisons.  The people within surveillance are unaware that they are being minded twenty-four-seven.  In this way of raising humanity, people are not aware they are being watched.  This keeps the ruling elite safe and away from abuse.  It also keeps the unintelligent persons from exerting control over the man in the watchtower.  All people want their interests taken care of, but they do not deserve it.

Imagine how far we’d be if people would give up their governance to the competent and let us handle the challenges in which truly reflect the benefit of existence on this planet and to others.

In closing, I would like to quote Einstein, “What the inventive genius of mankind has bestowed upon us in the last hundred years could have made human life carefree and happy if the development of the organizing power of man had been able to keep step with his technological advances. As it is, the hardly bought achievements of the machine age in the hands of our generation are as dangerous as a razor in the hands of a 3-year-old child. The possession of wonderful means of production has not brought freedom–only care and hunger.” 

“Thank you to all who are watching.  I’ve kept this part brief, not to bore you like hogs.”  

The man who questioned Tony wiped beads off of his head.  

“The best, the wisest, he who masters the art of ruling… as Plato said.  That’s us, together, to regain the world’s purpose.  

 

“Then they said to one another, “Come, let us make bricks and bake them thoroughly.”

The Tower of Babel

 

 

Skyler got out of bed.  Already the morning was making demands of her.  She had to turn in yet another English paper on the War of the Worlds by H.G. Wells.  She grabbed it after hitting print on her old laptop that had three blue screens to its count.  

“Literature class is so boring,” she said to herself, “It’s archaic garbage designed riddled with sayings and events that don’t matter anymore or could have never happened.  The aliens can’t handle water?  So you’re saying that some highly specialized and evolved organism comes to Earth and doesn’t realize that the planet is two-thirds water?  Yeah, believable.”  

“Skyler? Are you talking to yourself again?” Randy asked from the living room. 

“I’m talking to the voices in my head, Randy.  They say I want coffee,” she said. 

“Really?  My voices are saying something a bit lower.”

“You horndog,” Skyler returned. She walked into the small living room she hoped to move out of and to a bigger house in the suburbs.  Apartment life with all of its people close by, especially in the cheap ones they stayed at, left annoyances of dogs barking, people fighting, dogs fighting, and sopranos.  

“I don’t have time today. I have to turn in my paper on War of the Worlds by the socialist pig.  I’m too much of a capitalist for you, aren’t I, Randy?”

“I believe in humanity,” said Randy, “I know that bothers you and that mathematical mind of yours, always tracing how far numbers can go.”

“I wouldn’t be with you if that were true.”  It was.  Randy was a mechanic at a small shop on the outskirts of the town.  They’d been childhood friends turned lovers and High School sweethearts.  Skyler assumed that opposites attracted.  She was the negative and he was the positive of the relationship. 

“You know you can do better than him,” her mother had told her.

“Mom, he has a soul,” she said.

“So do all dead people who die from starvation,” she snapped back.  Her mother grew up in poverty, out in the country.  Her heart had hardened due to the challenges she’d faced, hunger, embarrassment, and ridicule.  What doesn’t kill you can make you evil, Skyler assumed.  

 

“They had brick for stone, and they had asphalt for mortar.”

    The Tower of Babel  

 

The angels zeroed in on their first target.  Jill and Megan were their names.  They peeked through the satellite’s viewpoint.   

“There are no angels to protect you from me, just flesh and teeth,” said Anna. She laughed under her breath.  “You’re a tiny maggot in a big world.  You would have grown to be so cute, so charming, so costly.  We cannot afford your future.  Everyone has their price, you see.  You can sniffle one last time.”

The baby took in a breath and then choked before crumbling off Earth and into the void.  

“Yuck, he managed to wet the bed through his diaper,” said Jill to Anna.

“They won’t need that bed anymore.  They’ll whine and cry after first, but the strong must conquer the weak, or there will be no survival.  This is ‘do or die.’ Think of all the refugees out there, all the starving children who could have been normal, yet we save brats like this who came into the world with weakness, cries, and would never have anything to give only selfishly take,” said Anna.

They moved on to the next target, hitting an old man with his drool covering half his face.  His legs were partly split with his side arched up.  

“Love me and kill me, baby,” Jill said.  She hit the ray. The man with his tired face shot out some snot that mixed in with the drool and wrinkles.  He let out a cry as he felt again in regions abandoned since his wife died at thirty. 

“Marsha,” he whispered out. 

 

And they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city, and a tower whose top is in the heavens; let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be scattered abroad over the face of the whole earth.”

–Tower of Babel

 

The people who had engaged in the first meeting with Tony began making public speeches about the coming of a New Age, a paradigm shift that would bring humanity the fruits of its labor.  

“As the good Lord says,” said the man who had licked the Cheetos off of his finger in the bathroom at the conference prior sang out to the church, “By their fruits, you shall know them!  Aren’t the techies working miracles?  I want you to become those miracles.  We could eradicate poverty, get rid of pain, stop every war with the power of the mind.  

“I all know you hear the cries from the poor, the ones who were cheated by madmen and greed.  With Tony, we can start a new chapter.  The wicked will find a place on Earth no longer.  They will fry in the flames and be no more but a spirit who tries to con God.  No con-artists is on the level of God himself.  The wicked are the fools with don’t have faith, who do not stand with the Lord. They show you their fruits. Give me an AMEN!” Marvin said.

“AMEN!”

 

Tony left from where he was behind the screen.  

Already, he’d gained the favors of officials, and he had the army dispatched around every city.  He had full access to all of the information of the world, and he knew he had filled the role of God.  The panopticon would enslave the world, and it would follow his command.  After years of suffering at the hands of his father, who was never pleased and now dead, and through higher education where he learned manipulation and how to lie, or be “creative,” as he called it, he would end the reign of all other humans.  He wouldn’t have to show them.  He’d know them after all.  He laughed at his rhyme.  Rhythm and rhyme fooled the best of dogs.  Smoke and mirrors were necessary now but not for long.  

 

Skyler stopped her car and stared forward.  

What?  She asked the light, “Go? It doesn’t say ‘go,’”

She turned her gaze to a yield sign that smiled.  Angry, she hit the gas and slipped on the road.  The median turned into a line as her speed increased.  A new emotion filled her: rage.

“You know you should listen more in English class.  These things have odd predictability about them.  It’s almost like they are and were alive.”

“Shut up!” she said to herself.  “The only things that are predictable are equations.  There are answers.  I know there are!”  Her emotions amplified more and more.  

“Have you ever tried, “Undefined?  That there are two different  answers to the same input?”

I’m arguing with my own thoughts. I can’t think! 

“Don’t worry, the last time a girlie was on the list it was just as cliche.  You’re nothing special.  A flame. A fly. A contradiction through time.”

Skyler passed another yield sign.  She felt her insides turn in emotional rolls.  She parked her car on the side of the street and ran into the woods.  She didn’t know why.

Her legs pumped through the brush.  Trees slashed her as thorns ripped into her autumn capris.  She started screaming.  Each feeling from her head to her body was alive with energy she’d never experienced before.  

The car didn’t stop.

Tony slammed into Skyler.  He saw the woman’s body fly over his hood.  Not wanting a lawsuit, he was prepared to pay, but it ruined his afternoon.  The satellites were all up. He had control over the entire grid of the world as his employees translated it onto a supercomputer.  

The woman began to stand up covered in blood with a patch of the skull showing.  She didn’t move.  

“Can I help you, ma’am? Are you okay? If you don’t mind, I can pay you any amount of money to say you fell on your own,” he said to Skyler.  

But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower which the sons of men had built.  And the Lord said, “Indeed the people are one and they all have one language, and this is what they begin to do; now nothing that they propose to do will be withheld from them,” Skyler said.  Her smile went up, and she walked toward Tony who became paralyzed with fear from her appearance.  

“A man in a box,” she said, staring at the yield sign, “hope in a box.” 

“L-look,” Tony said.  I’ll give you the car, everything, let’s get this meeting over with. I’ll give you anything.  Say it!”  

“I want the box.  The one in on the dashboard.”

“I-I can’t give you that,” Tony said, wiping fear off of his brow.  

“I can’t seem to give you anything, “Come, let Us go down and there confuse their language, that they may not understand one another’s speech.” 

Tony began to choke on his words. He slurred them and pushed them out with the effort of one masturbating with his head in a plastic bag. 

The thrill of being human. 

“Give me the box.  I’ve already killed the girl to enter from which a human cannot define, or zero.  As it was said last time, “ let Us go down and there confuse their language, that they may not understand one another’s speech.” 

Tony ran to his car and grabbed the controller to the world.  

“What a good man,” the voice said, a low note of Skyler’s voice.  “I wouldn’t want to burden you.”

Dead Skyler took the controls and smashed it over and over.  Every power grid fell, every server, frying, frying, frying until the world went black.  Nations began to blame each other.  They fought in what they had left.  

So the sun went down at the dawn of a new Dark Age.  

“Try again, you pesky beings!” He grinned.  “Blah, blah, blah.”